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That’s an eternal love(via rebellioussflower)
This time I thought I’d make it a bit of a surprise and really recovery orientated in order to promote recovery and health.
It will include recovery food items, health items, distractions, letters, books, fun things to do etc :)
It will end on the 5th October 8pm British time
You can like and reblog as much as you like but only reblogs will count
I will ship worldwide
HAPPY REBLOGGING <3
reblog and I’ll tell you what I could imagine you doing by the age of 30 based on your blog (I need things to do)
This is cool : )
I’m in the car heading home as we are leaving from my grandmas. I feel worse than ever. Well, not ever, but you know… I’m heavier than ever, thoughts are driving me insane. Im (TW) not eating near where enough, but anyways I’m gaining. Sth is wrong with me and my hormones. Ver since I gained back my period last November I’ve been gaining non stop. It’s the same as about 9 years ago when it all started. I was having my period for the first time and within a year I gained 10 kilo, about 20 pounds, without doing anything. And it was NOT just puberty hitting me. Then my period stopped. It was a “primary” amenorrhea. It stopped way before anorexia hit me. THEN came the weight loss, not otherwise. And now? It’s all the same. My face is so puffy I can’t stand looking into the mirror. I’m lazy, unable to move.
I miss my body as it was last year at this time. I was 10 kilos less than today and I was happy. I wasn’t underweight by this time and I’m not overweight today according to BMI measurements. However, I’m too heavy for my liking, for my well being, for the amounts I’m eating and my face looking nice. I have a round face, I’m well aware, however, I want to find back my confidence as I was fighting for it so long. I haven’t binged and I haven’t eaten anything that might cause gaining a bit. I was following my meal plan, aiming for 1700 cals a day, caring for proper ratios and I GAINED.
It feels like some daemon is fighting me. It was the trigger for anorexia 10 yrs ago and I don’t know what to do now. What to eat, how to eat. I feel helpless. I never thought I was able to dislike my body like this once again. When will these struggles ever end.
User from Your Eatopia Forum ‘Remission Accomplished’